Mama's Boy!

About eight months after Lance and I got married, I got pregnant.  Of course I was super excited and he was very nervous.  But on June 6 (shortly before our first anniversary) I had a miscarriage.  You hear: "It wasn't meant to be", "At least it was early", "Relax! It will happen when it is supposed to."  For those reading this let me tell you....DO NOT SAY THESE THINGS TO A WOMAN THAT HAS LOST A BABY!!!  These are not words of comfort.  They make us angry!  

After months of trying to get pregnant again I finally go to my doctor only to learn that I have PCOS.  We start fertility drugs but quickly decided that neither of us want to spend a lot of time and money on fertility treatment.  We would rather put that money towards adoption.  After my second miscarriage, we decided we would adopt.  

And let me make something very clear: Adoption to me is/was NOT simply because I had no other way of having children.  Adoption is an amazing blessing and a wonderful way to grow a family.  I did not adopt as a "second best" way of starting my family.  Lance and I adopted because it is what God called us to do.  We would have done it anyways-even if we had already had 2 bio children.  

We decided to go with private, domestic adoption.  Once we signed on with our attorney the process was pretty quick.  (That's what happens when you pay a lot of money for it).  In August of 2007 we were matched with a birthmother.  On November 21, 2007 at 5:37pm Zachary Isaac was born.  He weighed 7lbs 4oz., 19in, full head of black hair and absolutely perfect.  I feel in love immediately!!  For those that do not have children let me just say that you have not loved until you become a parent.  The love you have for your child/ren is overwhelming at the very least.  There are still times when I sit at night and rock my Zachary and cry because I am so in love with him it drives me crazy.  

He saved me.  I do not think he will ever fully understand how much he saved me.  I will try to explain this more in my next post..."Isabella"  

My sweet boy at 3 months

 Around 10 months

3 years old with his frog "Oliver"

He is all boy!!  Oh my!  WILD, CRAZY!  Loves sports and loves to run.  But he is so loving and sweet and kind-hear ted it melts me.  He is a wonderful big brother to his sisters.  I cannot wait to see how God is going to use my little man! Many many more pictures to follow :)